Small Letter to the Lord
I was sad when my father cried the doctor refused to perform surgery on my face. The doctor says: if I do not do surgery, then my life will not last more than 3 months. I was very surprised, because the disease has no signs of anything other than I had sore eyes followed by a nosebleed that occurred during the week. Cancer is only the size of my finger nail lodged in the temples and eyes, but the operation requires that I lost most of the left face and eyes.
My father certainly would not willingly I lost part of my face because I was a young girl who will grow up someday anyway. I never understood how scary the disease until I feel myself part of my face began to swell as tennis balls and blind. When I cry to feel pain, my father never wanted to honestly say the disease. Until finally I struggled to live for 3 months seek traditional treatment and one cleric told me I was attacked by cancer.
My feelings when it is destroyed, I know my life will not be long before the blind and lost my left nasal breathing. I cried and protested to God, why did he have the heart to snatch my teen years and my chance to become a singer and model. Tears are falling every day, never miss it when it comes the pain of cancer. However I was lucky, my friends, my family and my love always there beside me to give endless support.
When I started to let go Lord pick me up, I just pray to God hoping that he gives me more time in this world to say during the break with a friend, lover and especially to make my dad happy over lama.Disaat that I was not able to stand up and experiencing critical. God heard my prayer, that's when I get a miracle, a doctor saved me from the disease when the last moment of my life. I hit my face healed and cancer miraculously disappeared.
I feel the goodness of God against the sentence of death to me and the doctor said to me, I promised him from that moment to be grateful that he gave me life. After the disease was missing in my life, I spend my days happily with family and friends, I spent my time studying the scriptures and myself closer to God. Life-life passed happily in the end though I was expecting things that can not happen again in my life when the cancer returned to me, now he is attacking my right face.
When I get the verdict was returned, I was no longer afraid and I'm no longer mad at God. I'm grateful to him, he gave me the chance much longer in this world to be with friends, family and kekasihku.Walau tears were falling beside, I'm trying to toughen up and say to everyone, if the exam in my life is a sign of God's dear to me.
The doctor who saved my life the first time to give up, he was no longer able to save me. I just smiled and promised to survive until I could pass my final exam in this world in order to pass in junior high school. Although I'm blind and paralyzed, I promise to God and my friends to pass the high school and wear uniforms.
Friend, life is a wonderful gift. The goodness of God, I was able to take the exam schools with a more severe condition. I'm grateful because it can pass well and to finally be able to wear a uniform gray skirt with my friends even though only a day before when I had to be rushed to the hospital because the blood kept flowing in hidungku.Kematianku it's getting closer and I could feel the breath of mine when growing by weight.
But I do not want to leave this world without writing a letter to God .. the letter has made me live as a girl who struggles to live and thousands of other children who have cancer the same way.
I hope when I am no longer in this world, my story became an inspiration for anyone in this world to be grateful to be alive. Because God so loved us all with his trials.
Buddy .. when there is laughter in this world, then there will be weeping beside him.
In memorial Gitta wanda cantika Sessa.
